i am a professional dreamer

Today marks the 40th day of passing over of the most important man in my life, my DAD. God asked my dad to join Him in his kingdom on the 20th of April. It really comes when you least expect it. 

Popoy, most of his friends call him, was a good provider, a loyal friend, an encouraging brother, a loving husband and an honest public servant. 

On the day of his wake our house was filled with so many flowers. I never knew how much he was loved by so many people until I saw thousands of people from all walks of life visited him and showed him so much love and respect. 

My dad has taught the most important lesson in life; When you suffer much, you learn much. My dad grew up as a very simple man and he never asked for the best things in life. 

While he was at the hospital I’ve held his hands, they were not as soft as the last time I held hands with him. I remember the day when my hand fits perfectly with his hand. He showed how beautiful the “Pahiyas” in Lucban, Quezon while I am enjoying my cotton candy. I knew that he had put so much hard work and have done so much just to raise us well.

I’ve seen all his hardships and sufferings while he was in the hospital. I couldn’t do anything but to ask God and bargained for his life. I was ready to surrender all my hopes and dreams. There were so many things going through my head during that time. I’ve even thought of selling my soul to the devil just to save my dad. 

On the night when I saw my dad gasping for air and his vital signs began to drop, am not really sure if you would believe me or not, I tried to wake him up and asked him if he’s ok. He just shed a tear and told me that he saw my grandfather. I really couldn’t contain my tears but I just told my dad that he was just tired, go back to sleep and I assured him that I would never ever leave him. During that time, he looked so young and handsome. I was asking myself why does he have to look this good despite of all of his sufferings. He looked at me and I just realized how beautiful his eyes were. He grabbed our hands and I never knew that it would be the last time.

Pa, am really sorry if I never liked the way you put on your clothes. Am sorry if I always ask money from you. Am sorry for not giving you a very glamorous life. Am sorry for not showing you how much I love you. But thank you for making me the man I am now. 

Thank you and I love you. You will always be my superhero.

Tell your dad how much you love him or show him that you love him in your own small way.